SW Keep fighting and striving to get closer to God and become what I’m convinced he’s calling you to become for your benefit. Get free literature from the TRUE Churches of God and read information on this site to help you with your spiritual growth. I will always love you and I’m praying for you on a daily basis.
Submit to God and he will transform your life. Just look how he changed me. He can change anyone into a better person who will also be destined to receive all of his promises and blessings as long as they submit to him, you included.
This is a personal battle that only you can fight. No one can fight it for you. We are all responsible for our own spiritual growth. But when you submit to God’s ten commandments and word he will strengthen you and fight your battles for you. Keep fighting and making the necessary changes. I love you and I’m praying for you.